Smiles and laughs

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I know it’s a long time since I last wrote and I’m not sure if people even read these anymore, but I needed to write something. It’s a long time since I’ve been so mad at the world. I’m only 16 and I don’t understand the world. I thought I did, but now I’m positive that the world we live in is disturbed.

I have three friends. Three very close friends, but they’re not just my close friends or best friends they are my family and when something happens to them. I’ll do anything to make it better, but this time I can’t do anything about it. My one friend got some very terrible news a week ago, news that would make you stop laughing for years, but this girl she smiles and laughs and I know that some would say the person is in denial, but for me it seems like she’s choosing to fight. Not only fight the bad thing, but fight the feeling of being sad. Every smile and every laugh is a fight and she keeps winning them. Every time I saw laugh or smile this week I admired her. As I wrote in my post about beauty for me it’s when a person is fighting against the darkness and the sadness that keep trying to invade their life and that’s what my friend is doing. She’s fighting against what normally would eat up a person. She smiles and laughs and it’s so amazing to watch. I’m not sure how I would react if I was in her situation, but she’s an inspiration. Seeing her smile you can see the battle behind it and that makes it the most beautiful smile you can ever see. She doesn’t see herself as strong, but that’s what it takes and normally when you fight somewhere in the future there will be victory. So even though I’m not sure I even believe in God I believe in something bigger someone who listens and today and tomorrow everyday until victory I’ll pray for this amazing strong girl who should get a victory medal for winning everyday over the sadness in her fighting against her. I hope some of you will pray for this girl you never met. Pray for her to keep winning, because I know she can. I’ll pray for my family. If she’s strong – I’m strong.

Love you.

“For being beautiful, amazing and one hell of a fighter”

– Amy

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Fine.

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I’m fine, we’re all fine, everybody is fine…

“Are you okay?” “yea I’m fine” – what do you mean by that?. Are you REALLY fine or a you actually horrible and your world is falling a part. It’s hard to know. I personally have a habit for running for my problems and I do by telling myself that I’m fine. The guy I’m seeing is also seeing someone else – you know what I’m fine, I’ll survive.

Have you heard of a panic attack? I had one last year. I remember that I couldn’t breath. I felt like my lungs where getting smaller and that I couldn’t breath probably. At the moment I didn’t know why I couldn’t breath, but thinking back at it. It makes sense that my world were falling down and a part. 4 years of pain and problems finally hit me, but instead of dealing with the problems when they came I was keeping them inside. So all the pain came down at ones.

For 4 years I said to others “I’m fine” so many times that I start believing it.

Meredith: I’m fine.                                                                                                                                                                            Alex: You said that word so many times today, it doesn’t even sound like a word anymore

Derek: How is Meredith, anyway?
Cristina: Fine.
Derek: She’s always fine. That’s her problem.
Cristina: We’re fine people. We do fine. We’re fine.

I wondered over this topic when I saw an episode in Grey’s anatomy, so these quotes or dialog’s is from different episodes. They describe what I want to say about this. I learned that it’s healthy to face your problems because avoiding them only makes it worse. I’m still working on it though. Sometimes it feels harder to face the problem then to avoid it, but it helps in the end.

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Soulmate or soulmates?

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Do you think we have more than one soul mate. I mean is there one or two or ever more persons who you just don’t love, but who is your soulmate. We always hear that life is about finding that one person. But I don’t think so anymore. I know you can find a person you’ll love forever, but then doesn’t you miss the fun of finding the person. You hear often that a couple met in high school and had been together ever since. They didn’t have to look anymore because they found their soulmate. The bigger question is how do you know if the person is your soulmate and what is soulmate.

So I looked the word soulmate up and it’s a person you have deep feelings for that you can explain. Feeling you can’t set words on. For me that sound amazing. It almost sound like a fairytale. And when you find the person who can’t be explain, but it doesn’t work between you. does that mean they you aren’t soulmates? personally I think you can move on from on soulmate and find a new one. It isn’t only one person it’s more. I don’t think there is a number because when you know a person and you have deep feelings for the person. You make the person your soulmate. It’s not just a feeling you get when you walk past the person. If you feel you can make the person you soulmate and because you can do that. You can also lose the person. It doesn’t make sense, but maybe it will. I don’t know.
Somehow I hope you know when to make the person your soulmate and on the other hand I hope not. I mean life should be an adventure. And part of life is getting hurt, so when you find the person don’t be afraid even though it can go wrong.

 

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The Bad guy vs The Good guy

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Twilight, the vampire diaries, gossip girl, the phantom of the opera. they are names on movies where girls always fall in love with the bad guy and we fall in love with them. Det bad ones. They can be cruel and mean, but they have something that the good guy don’t have. We want excitement in life. We want to take a change..CARPE DIEM….Right? isn’t it a little strange that even though we don’t want to admit it ex. the phantom he kills and kidnaps but still I personally takes his side and I cry every time I see the movie because I don’t understand why she doesn’t choose him. He has something. He is dark and bad and in the movie she is drawn by it. in love never dies they tell you that she choose him for a night and she keeps coming back. You would say she’s stupid. She got the man of any women dream. A man who takes care of you and your family, but that isn’t always enough. I mean would he die for you. You can be a 100% sure that the phantom would die for you because he loves you more than he can describe. Why think we seek love, but we really seek “the epic love” the love that you can run from.

 

The epic love is a very interesting thing because it can be an epic love if you really feel it and it doesn’t matter who the person is and isn’t it just a teenage dream to end up the protective and bad guy. I mean in the real world isn’t it like that. An epic love can be with anybody and often we end up with the good guy and the better guy. That isn’t bad right? does it really matter if the guy is bad or good. If it’s an epic love then it’s an epic love. No matter what you shouldn’t run from it. every girl have dreams but most of the times you don’t end up with your dream you end up with something better!! That is what epic love is about something that is good for you.

 

So personally I think that every girl is drawn by the bad guy in movies and in television, but also in real love. It’s kind of one humans disabilities. why always need to choose the wrong one and make mistakes, but in the end we end up with the great guy. not the better or the bad guy, but the great and amazing guy! That is the most important think and I think that everybody needs to find out what the great guy. Right now the only experience I have is with bad guy, but that isn’t any mystic over that. he was more the wrong guy then the bad guy.

 

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I’m so…..

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Jesus I’m so stupid!! So I was running a little late this morning because I was sleeping to long.
When I was almost done with all the stuff I do in the morning I went upstairs to get me phone and on my way down I fell on the stairs because of my stupid shoes. Now I’m laying in my bed with ice on my back and feeling sorry for my self.

Just a normal day…

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Music

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The sweet sound in your ears that you can’t live without. All people are driven by it, but it’s teenagers who started. Music is almost our lives. There is nothing else that can get me in a better mood then a little music.

Music is an old culture, but the real music started in 60s. Can you imagine living back then. It must have been amazing. Today music is a little different then back then, but it still does the same to people. it gathers us in different a funny ways. You get to have your own opinion on music and it’s amazing. It’s all about what you wanna hear. Not only does it bring us together it also make us question.

The think I love most about music is that it can make even the most boring thing funny and you can’t live without a little fun 😀

I hear music after my mood. If I’m sad I songs like cry by Rihanna which by the way is very depressing. When I wake up to a friday I hear songs like walks like Rihanna by The wanted. When I’m really angry at someone I hear Demi lavato I don’t what it is about her but she really has some anger issue, but what i love most about her is that’s she’s strong ans she shows it in her song and that amazing. It’s like you can find out who the person is in their song.I love it. For me the lyrics in the song is very important it must be something I can relate to.

What’s your favorit music?

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What to do next?

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I’m so lost right now, what should i do with this blog. I love writing and I love writing to all of you. I just don’t know what to write about.

I’ve been thinking that I would start to write a story so every week I would publish some chapters of the story, but I just don’t know if you guys would like it. Please help amazing followers!! What do you think about my idea? Do you want me to write about? What is missing on blog? Please Help!!

A day of a teenager – the Weekend

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So this post isn’t just for today, but the whole weekend.This was the weekend of my life. Everything was so amazing. Let’s start from friday. Friday I had dinner with some friends and my parents. It was great, but my stomach really hurt. It felt like nervous butterflies. I think when the time was about 11 pm i left the dinner and went over to my friend. We made a little sleep over with two other girls. It’s my best friends, but Friday was nothing like Saturday. My friends and I started with warming out and when the time finally was 4 pm we went in to Copenhagen. It was crazy to see so many people in one place. We waited some outside the arena and I could feel that my stomach got more and more strange. I really felt like I was going faint ’cause I was so nervous that the tickets wouldn’t work, but they did thank god!! When we finally got in I felt much better! In there we waited for like three hours and after 2 hours I was really tired of Micheal Jackson ’cause it was playing as waiting music. The concert was a little late because of some fans in front. We waited an hour more for Justin Bieber, but it was all worth it when he entered the stage. I was so hyped!! It was so amazing! I felt like I was apart of something bigger. I finally understood what the beliebers ment when they say that we’re family!! and we are and I really felt that. It was so amazing it’s hard to describe how it was ’cause there isn’t words for it. I was just to happy to share this with my besties. It was unreal that you finally saw him after all that time following him. You really feel like you know him and that you met before and that it’s just some time since you saw him.

When Justin Bieber started singing Believe all the people in the arena had a sign that said proud. I admit that I was expecting so many people with the proud sings. It was an amazing to look out over the audience and see everyone doing the same thing. I was definitely apart of something really big and you felt like one it was so amazing. Okay hmm I’ve used amazing a lot? 😀 The music was of course also great and I stood up under the whole show. I was having so much fun and I will remember it for the rest of my life. This was my first real concert and I’m glad that it was ’cause now I will remember it for life.

After the show I felt so empty and before the concert started I had this funny feeling in my stomach that at that time I wanted to go away, but after the show I would have done anything to get it all back. I wished I could go back in time and see it all again!!! Now I’m just wondering why does people hate on when he is so amazing and just misunderstood? Is it because they are jealouse of him? I really don’t get it, what is there to hate? I just Love him really I know that you really can’t say that about a person that you never met, but I really feel like a have known him since forever!!! #believetour @Justin Bieber

Am I crazy?

– Amy

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*dying* :0

A day of a teenager – Saturday

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Omg can you believe it today I’m going to Justin Bieber concert..I can’t wait for it!!! Right now I’m with my three girls and in 5 hours Justin Bieber is going to be on stage!!! It was hard for me to sleep yesterday ’cause I was and still are very nervous!! What if something goes wrong, what if we can’t get in!!! I remember when my friends and I began counting down to the Day and I remember that there was 268 days and now there are few hours!??!

I have a strange feeling in my stomach it feels like butterflies, but the butterflies is also a little bit nervous. I don’t know if you know what I mean, but you feel like you know this person that you never met! Is really strange? I’m finally going to see him and I can’t wait. The songs that I look forward to the must is Fall and as long as you love me, but all the songs is amazing!!!!! I can’t wait to see and feel the karma in the stadium. I know it sound strange, but it’s so hard to explain how I feel right now.

– Amy

Ps. Beliebers outside the arena in Copenhagen!!

 

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A day of a teenager – thursday

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I can’t believe how long it is since I wrote to you!! I feel so bad. The positive side is that I had time to change a little on my blog. What do you think? Please write what you think in the comments!! It would really mean a lot!!

The days are going fast! I’m not in school yet because of some problems with the schools. In the start it was awesome and it still is, but it’s beginning to be a little bit boring. I haven’t been in school for 3 weeks I think. It’s a bit hard to keep track of all the days which passed by.

In two days I’m going to Justin Bieber concert and I can’t wait to see him. I know what you may be thinking “Omg not you to” I always though he was amazing, but there was and still is so many who is saying stuff about him. I never got it, why do people hate on him. What did he do? But now I that I have to stick up for him ’cause the haters can’t decide if i like him or not. it’s strange that you feel  you know a person even though you never met the person. I feel like I know him well, but I still can’t wait to see him in person!!!! I’m going to the concert with some of the most important people in my life. They are the only persons that I want to share this experience with. We are going to the biggest arena in Denmark. I can’t wait to see all the people. There can be 30.000 people in the arena!! that’s a lot of people!!

In 16 days it’s my confirmation and omg I can’t wait I still don’t have my dress which is so annoying. I have to get it my self, so I have to take a train trip on 3 hours just to get my dress!!! Damn it…I can really feel that the day is getting closer!

I heard about what happened in boston and it’s so horrible. I can believe that USA always have to get hurt. I really pray for all the victims and for their family’s!!!! I don’t get why persons can’t do this to others. I person with a brain and a heart shouldn’t be able to do something like this?? In my head it doesn’t make any sense at all!!! I know that USA often have suffered, but I still think that the most amazing thing about USA is that when something happens that all stick together. I don’t think there is a country so loyal!! Few hours after the terror in boston happens all the celebrities start writing to boston. It’s just amazing all the things they do for their country. The president was so fast to call to boston and help. USA is loyal and most of the people who lives in USA wants to do anything to help each other. I’m a little jealous of USA as you maybe can hear..

– Amy

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