I know it’s a long time since I last wrote and I’m not sure if people even read these anymore, but I needed to write something. It’s a long time since I’ve been so mad at the world. I’m only 16 and I don’t understand the world. I thought I did, but now I’m positive that the world we live in is disturbed.
I have three friends. Three very close friends, but they’re not just my close friends or best friends they are my family and when something happens to them. I’ll do anything to make it better, but this time I can’t do anything about it. My one friend got some very terrible news a week ago, news that would make you stop laughing for years, but this girl she smiles and laughs and I know that some would say the person is in denial, but for me it seems like she’s choosing to fight. Not only fight the bad thing, but fight the feeling of being sad. Every smile and every laugh is a fight and she keeps winning them. Every time I saw laugh or smile this week I admired her. As I wrote in my post about beauty for me it’s when a person is fighting against the darkness and the sadness that keep trying to invade their life and that’s what my friend is doing. She’s fighting against what normally would eat up a person. She smiles and laughs and it’s so amazing to watch. I’m not sure how I would react if I was in her situation, but she’s an inspiration. Seeing her smile you can see the battle behind it and that makes it the most beautiful smile you can ever see. She doesn’t see herself as strong, but that’s what it takes and normally when you fight somewhere in the future there will be victory. So even though I’m not sure I even believe in God I believe in something bigger someone who listens and today and tomorrow everyday until victory I’ll pray for this amazing strong girl who should get a victory medal for winning everyday over the sadness in her fighting against her. I hope some of you will pray for this girl you never met. Pray for her to keep winning, because I know she can. I’ll pray for my family. If she’s strong – I’m strong.
“For being beautiful, amazing and one hell of a fighter”
Teenagers who acts like they are grown ups – driving by VIP and money
This is the tv shows of all tv shows. My friends in school started seeing it a long time ago and they said to me ” Amalie you’ll love and omg chuck bass is so hot” I though it was very complicated because it had to many people in it and I didn’t think that chuck bass was hot. Then 5 months ago began seeing it from the start it was much better and I fell in love with Blair and Serena. The way they act is amazing they are best friends and they live in their amazing world. I don’t know what it was but I felt like I was apart of it. After some time you begin to pick side and picked Blair’s, Serena’s, Chuck’s and Nate’s ’cause even though they didn’t say it out loud they stuck together and helped each other. there wasn’t anybody who could come in their little group. They had seen the worse part of each others.
The tv show has 6 seasons and in every episode something unbelievable happens to me it seemed hard to solve but it always it ends with that the solve the problem and sometimes the persons comes in so much trouble. The thing that I found out in the tv show was every character in the tv show had a story many of them had problems with their parents. They solve all their problems with out the police and with out help from their parents.
Gossip girl isn’t only about the teenagers drama it’s also the parents drama basically it’s grown ups acting like they are teenagers just with more money they use their money for everything they can. If they need some drugs they just buy it or maybe the just steal it from their son.
I though and I still think that Gossip girl is the best tv show I have ever seen because of the love, the money, the VIP, but most important the drama. You ship the persons in the tv show with each other you wanna see them happy and you feel like you are the only one who knows who they are meant to be with. ex. in the start I only was on Serena’s side and then I also was on Blairs, but then again what was the mystery behind Chuck bass? was the bass really as bad as he seemed. Chuck was the first male in the gossip girl who made an impression on me. He was bad and twisted and a mystery. He was a girls biggest dream and you were quick totally “hot on him” and so was Blair. It just took her long time to know that Chuck also has another side. A side that only she could get out of him. Chucks biggest problem was his dad. Yes the bad ass had a very vulnerable side.
So if you like drama and mystery you should defiantly see the tv show and pick a side are you Dan Humphrey – Brooklyn side or are you with Blair and Serena on the upper east side? But must importantly what guy is you crush are you with Nate the sweet but who also can be a really bad ass or with his best friend Chuck who is sex on a stick and really bad ass or are you humble Humphrey from Brooklyn who will surprise you so much?
Omg can you believe it today I’m going to Justin Bieber concert..I can’t wait for it!!! Right now I’m with my three girls and in 5 hours Justin Bieber is going to be on stage!!! It was hard for me to sleep yesterday ’cause I was and still are very nervous!! What if something goes wrong, what if we can’t get in!!! I remember when my friends and I began counting down to the Day and I remember that there was 268 days and now there are few hours!??!
I have a strange feeling in my stomach it feels like butterflies, but the butterflies is also a little bit nervous. I don’t know if you know what I mean, but you feel like you know this person that you never met! Is really strange? I’m finally going to see him and I can’t wait. The songs that I look forward to the must is Fall and as long as you love me, but all the songs is amazing!!!!! I can’t wait to see and feel the karma in the stadium. I know it sound strange, but it’s so hard to explain how I feel right now.
Dear honey why do you feel free today? The answer for that is easy, it’s because you are singel. Why only see the negative side when there are a positive side too. Now you don’t have to think of other persons then family, friends and yourself. Right after I began to be single I felt free and I was ready to do something crazy, but I admit sometimes I miss waking up to a sms from him where he writes how much he misses me and that he wishes me a great day. It just kind of lights up your world a little. The best thing by being single is the time you have with your friends suddenly your friends and you are equal ’cause now you both can look after boys when your out. I like that I don’t have to look great all the time I can look ugly if I want to. It might be that girls like to dress up and look pretty, but we also love to look ugly. When you are single you don’t have to always think of the others person you can think a little more of yourself instead, which is great sometimes. I know it might feel lonely sometimes, but maybe you need to feel lonely it’s good for the soul I think.
Heartbroken The must scary word really!! See that is the good part of being single a boy can’t break your heart. Who wants a brokenheart? I hope nobody ’cause it’s so painfull why go through that when you don’t have to. I know that sometimes you have to ’cause you can’t find right person from the start and girls can’t say that they are afraid that a boy will break their heart ’cause we girls can break hearts too and we do it to protect us self for being brokenhearted. It’s a black circle….
Omg im so sorry that the post is so late..I just arrived to my summerhouse for the easter. I didn’t wanne come ’cause it’s in the middel of no where, but I had to get my confirmation dress. I can’t wait to see it I will post a picture of it when I get it promise.
My summerhouse is a little house and it’s old. It’s from ca. 1980 so it’s not really old. let’s just say that it smells old!! 😀 Some of our good friends is also in a summerhouse so we were together with them to very late last night. It was funny!! I haven’t heard for my friends at home, but it makes sense ’cause I can’t be on facebook. Only when im on my computer witch is pretty annoying!!
I’m so afraid of what is going to come. I know some of you already know what you are going to do in the future, but most of us is lost and we fear it. I remember from when I was little I always dreamed about my future. What it was going to be like to be a grown up. I remember that I always dreamed about a big white house and a lot of money so I didn’t have to care about what I would buy. Now I know that I have to work for it and what if I never finds out what to do with my life. So many worries…
Now that we are older a lot of people asks us what we are going to be in the future and you really wish that you know but you are just lost. They’ll keep asking until you know personally i’ve learned that I shouldn’t care about others already knows what they are going to be. You are so jealous that you don’t have your life figured out. Future is about your dreams what do you wanna be and how do you wanna be like. You’ll never stop dreaming and you shouldn’t ’cause you work more for it when you really want it.
So are dreams and future the same thing im not sure ’cause dreaming is like wanting something really bad and like I wrote before when you really wants something you’ll get it, but it’s not all your dreams are like that some dreams are fantasy and some we like to stay like that. f.eks you’ll dream about being in another world like sometimes i wish for something bigger then this world sometimes i wish that f.eks there existed vampires not because i think it’s a great thing but because it’s something different and because they can do things that we humans only dream off.