I know it’s a long time since I last wrote and I’m not sure if people even read these anymore, but I needed to write something. It’s a long time since I’ve been so mad at the world. I’m only 16 and I don’t understand the world. I thought I did, but now I’m positive that the world we live in is disturbed.
I have three friends. Three very close friends, but they’re not just my close friends or best friends they are my family and when something happens to them. I’ll do anything to make it better, but this time I can’t do anything about it. My one friend got some very terrible news a week ago, news that would make you stop laughing for years, but this girl she smiles and laughs and I know that some would say the person is in denial, but for me it seems like she’s choosing to fight. Not only fight the bad thing, but fight the feeling of being sad. Every smile and every laugh is a fight and she keeps winning them. Every time I saw laugh or smile this week I admired her. As I wrote in my post about beauty for me it’s when a person is fighting against the darkness and the sadness that keep trying to invade their life and that’s what my friend is doing. She’s fighting against what normally would eat up a person. She smiles and laughs and it’s so amazing to watch. I’m not sure how I would react if I was in her situation, but she’s an inspiration. Seeing her smile you can see the battle behind it and that makes it the most beautiful smile you can ever see. She doesn’t see herself as strong, but that’s what it takes and normally when you fight somewhere in the future there will be victory. So even though I’m not sure I even believe in God I believe in something bigger someone who listens and today and tomorrow everyday until victory I’ll pray for this amazing strong girl who should get a victory medal for winning everyday over the sadness in her fighting against her. I hope some of you will pray for this girl you never met. Pray for her to keep winning, because I know she can. I’ll pray for my family. If she’s strong – I’m strong.
“For being beautiful, amazing and one hell of a fighter”
So this post isn’t just for today, but the whole weekend.This was the weekend of my life. Everything was so amazing. Let’s start from friday. Friday I had dinner with some friends and my parents. It was great, but my stomach really hurt. It felt like nervous butterflies. I think when the time was about 11 pm i left the dinner and went over to my friend. We made a little sleep over with two other girls. It’s my best friends, but Friday was nothing like Saturday. My friends and I started with warming out and when the time finally was 4 pm we went in to Copenhagen. It was crazy to see so many people in one place. We waited some outside the arena and I could feel that my stomach got more and more strange. I really felt like I was going faint ’cause I was so nervous that the tickets wouldn’t work, but they did thank god!! When we finally got in I felt much better! In there we waited for like three hours and after 2 hours I was really tired of Micheal Jackson ’cause it was playing as waiting music. The concert was a little late because of some fans in front. We waited an hour more for Justin Bieber, but it was all worth it when he entered the stage. I was so hyped!! It was so amazing! I felt like I was apart of something bigger. I finally understood what the beliebers ment when they say that we’re family!! and we are and I really felt that. It was so amazing it’s hard to describe how it was ’cause there isn’t words for it. I was just to happy to share this with my besties. It was unreal that you finally saw him after all that time following him. You really feel like you know him and that you met before and that it’s just some time since you saw him.
When Justin Bieber started singing Believe all the people in the arena had a sign that said proud. I admit that I was expecting so many people with the proud sings. It was an amazing to look out over the audience and see everyone doing the same thing. I was definitely apart of something really big and you felt like one it was so amazing. Okay hmm I’ve used amazing a lot? 😀 The music was of course also great and I stood up under the whole show. I was having so much fun and I will remember it for the rest of my life. This was my first real concert and I’m glad that it was ’cause now I will remember it for life.
After the show I felt so empty and before the concert started I had this funny feeling in my stomach that at that time I wanted to go away, but after the show I would have done anything to get it all back. I wished I could go back in time and see it all again!!! Now I’m just wondering why does people hate on when he is so amazing and just misunderstood? Is it because they are jealouse of him? I really don’t get it, what is there to hate? I just Love him really I know that you really can’t say that about a person that you never met, but I really feel like a have known him since forever!!! #believetour @Justin Bieber
Dear honey why do you feel free today? The answer for that is easy, it’s because you are singel. Why only see the negative side when there are a positive side too. Now you don’t have to think of other persons then family, friends and yourself. Right after I began to be single I felt free and I was ready to do something crazy, but I admit sometimes I miss waking up to a sms from him where he writes how much he misses me and that he wishes me a great day. It just kind of lights up your world a little. The best thing by being single is the time you have with your friends suddenly your friends and you are equal ’cause now you both can look after boys when your out. I like that I don’t have to look great all the time I can look ugly if I want to. It might be that girls like to dress up and look pretty, but we also love to look ugly. When you are single you don’t have to always think of the others person you can think a little more of yourself instead, which is great sometimes. I know it might feel lonely sometimes, but maybe you need to feel lonely it’s good for the soul I think.
Heartbroken The must scary word really!! See that is the good part of being single a boy can’t break your heart. Who wants a brokenheart? I hope nobody ’cause it’s so painfull why go through that when you don’t have to. I know that sometimes you have to ’cause you can’t find right person from the start and girls can’t say that they are afraid that a boy will break their heart ’cause we girls can break hearts too and we do it to protect us self for being brokenhearted. It’s a black circle….
I was home late last night so im will update to times today!!
Yesterday was the longest day ever. My family and I didn’t do anything the hole day. As I wrote before I was going to see my confirmation dress, but it was 7.30 pm, so I had to use the time for something! Later that day I visited my grandmother I know it sound wried and boring, but it wasen’t it never is. My grandmother means the world to me. After that I went to see my dress. My cousine made it and it is the most beautiful thing really!! but there was some things with it so I couldn’t get it with me. It’s so annoying ‘casue now i’ll have to wait longer. I really just want it with me now!!! So yesterday wasen’t the best day ever??!
It has been a funny and a sweet day ’cause my moms sister and her children came to visit us today. My family and I live in the other part of the country so we don’t see them much..So everytime we see the children they’ve grown a lot sometimes I feel they grow to fast. My family is the most important thing ’cause no matter what they always got my back!!
I felt so stupid today because we went for a walk all of us and I didn’t have any warm clotes with me. Like a real teenager I looked like it was summer. The walk ended in snow. I mean really snow in the easter???? I hate Denmark!!!! Why does it always have to be so cold? I still can’t wait for tomorrow, im going to see my dress!!!!
It’s cozy to be in the summerhouse, but it can be boring!! I know it sounds wried, but it’s so hard for me to fall asleep at night cause im scared. What about you when do you feel scared? I feel it when it’s dark at night and im living in the middel of no where. I don’t know what exactly I am afraid of, but okay I admit it! You have to work with your scariness you have to admit you are afraid. Sometimes you feel so afriad that you have to talk to somebody instead of just hidding it away ’cause someday when your afraid all the other times you’ve been afraid comes back, so all the scariness comes at the same time!! It so much harder to work with.
Omg im so sorry that the post is so late..I just arrived to my summerhouse for the easter. I didn’t wanne come ’cause it’s in the middel of no where, but I had to get my confirmation dress. I can’t wait to see it I will post a picture of it when I get it promise.
My summerhouse is a little house and it’s old. It’s from ca. 1980 so it’s not really old. let’s just say that it smells old!! 😀 Some of our good friends is also in a summerhouse so we were together with them to very late last night. It was funny!! I haven’t heard for my friends at home, but it makes sense ’cause I can’t be on facebook. Only when im on my computer witch is pretty annoying!!
Omg I was up so early today ’cause I had to help my best friend and her family. I think my sister and I helped them for like 5 hours and it was okay! It was fun to un pack all their kitchen stuff. My sister and I went home. I wanted so bad to see Gossip girl. I don’t know if you guys know it but the tv show is amazing. I love to see a different life then my own all the drame in thier life. I just can’t get enough of gossip girl I wish it would never end, but it does so i’m savin gthe episodes a little ’cause I don’t want it to end.
It has been an okay day. I am really happy for my friend I would love to move to not because i hate my house but because I wanted to try something new in my life! The best thing that happend today is that my easter break is longer because Denmark has some problems..It’s a long story and it isen’t very interestng!!!