Smiles and laughs

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I know it’s a long time since I last wrote and I’m not sure if people even read these anymore, but I needed to write something. It’s a long time since I’ve been so mad at the world. I’m only 16 and I don’t understand the world. I thought I did, but now I’m positive that the world we live in is disturbed.

I have three friends. Three very close friends, but they’re not just my close friends or best friends they are my family and when something happens to them. I’ll do anything to make it better, but this time I can’t do anything about it. My one friend got some very terrible news a week ago, news that would make you stop laughing for years, but this girl she smiles and laughs and I know that some would say the person is in denial, but for me it seems like she’s choosing to fight. Not only fight the bad thing, but fight the feeling of being sad. Every smile and every laugh is a fight and she keeps winning them. Every time I saw laugh or smile this week I admired her. As I wrote in my post about beauty for me it’s when a person is fighting against the darkness and the sadness that keep trying to invade their life and that’s what my friend is doing. She’s fighting against what normally would eat up a person. She smiles and laughs and it’s so amazing to watch. I’m not sure how I would react if I was in her situation, but she’s an inspiration. Seeing her smile you can see the battle behind it and that makes it the most beautiful smile you can ever see. She doesn’t see herself as strong, but that’s what it takes and normally when you fight somewhere in the future there will be victory. So even though I’m not sure I even believe in God I believe in something bigger someone who listens and today and tomorrow everyday until victory I’ll pray for this amazing strong girl who should get a victory medal for winning everyday over the sadness in her fighting against her. I hope some of you will pray for this girl you never met. Pray for her to keep winning, because I know she can. I’ll pray for my family. If she’s strong – I’m strong.

Love you.

“For being beautiful, amazing and one hell of a fighter”

– Amy

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An education

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wow this movie really surprised me. I may have seen it before but there was something really amazing about it. The movie is about a young girl who studies to go to Oxford, but then she meets this guy who is much older than she and he shows her another way of life. She has so much fun and her dream comes true, but when life is the best everything goes bad. she drops out of school because she things she can get a better future, but as the title sais she gets an education.

The big question is what the title means. I don’t think it’s so direct. She gets a life experience and a life education. I think the movie takes place maybe in the 50s or 60s  where not many women got an education ’cause they married rich instead, but some women began thinking that they could take care of them self. For many this time was grey and it’s about living life and finding your self. Jenny which is the girl’s name has a peak of a fresh and new world, but is that world really as amazing as it seems?

 

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A day of a teenager – the Weekend

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So this post isn’t just for today, but the whole weekend.This was the weekend of my life. Everything was so amazing. Let’s start from friday. Friday I had dinner with some friends and my parents. It was great, but my stomach really hurt. It felt like nervous butterflies. I think when the time was about 11 pm i left the dinner and went over to my friend. We made a little sleep over with two other girls. It’s my best friends, but Friday was nothing like Saturday. My friends and I started with warming out and when the time finally was 4 pm we went in to Copenhagen. It was crazy to see so many people in one place. We waited some outside the arena and I could feel that my stomach got more and more strange. I really felt like I was going faint ’cause I was so nervous that the tickets wouldn’t work, but they did thank god!! When we finally got in I felt much better! In there we waited for like three hours and after 2 hours I was really tired of Micheal Jackson ’cause it was playing as waiting music. The concert was a little late because of some fans in front. We waited an hour more for Justin Bieber, but it was all worth it when he entered the stage. I was so hyped!! It was so amazing! I felt like I was apart of something bigger. I finally understood what the beliebers ment when they say that we’re family!! and we are and I really felt that. It was so amazing it’s hard to describe how it was ’cause there isn’t words for it. I was just to happy to share this with my besties. It was unreal that you finally saw him after all that time following him. You really feel like you know him and that you met before and that it’s just some time since you saw him.

When Justin Bieber started singing Believe all the people in the arena had a sign that said proud. I admit that I was expecting so many people with the proud sings. It was an amazing to look out over the audience and see everyone doing the same thing. I was definitely apart of something really big and you felt like one it was so amazing. Okay hmm I’ve used amazing a lot? 😀 The music was of course also great and I stood up under the whole show. I was having so much fun and I will remember it for the rest of my life. This was my first real concert and I’m glad that it was ’cause now I will remember it for life.

After the show I felt so empty and before the concert started I had this funny feeling in my stomach that at that time I wanted to go away, but after the show I would have done anything to get it all back. I wished I could go back in time and see it all again!!! Now I’m just wondering why does people hate on when he is so amazing and just misunderstood? Is it because they are jealouse of him? I really don’t get it, what is there to hate? I just Love him really I know that you really can’t say that about a person that you never met, but I really feel like a have known him since forever!!! #believetour @Justin Bieber

Am I crazy?

– Amy

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Single

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Dear honey why do you feel free today? The answer for that is easy, it’s because you are singel. Why only see the negative side when there are a positive side too. Now you don’t have to think of other persons then family, friends and yourself. Right after I began to be single I felt free and I was ready to do something crazy, but I admit sometimes I miss waking up to a sms from him where he writes how much he misses me and that he wishes me a great day. It just kind of lights up your world a little. The best thing by being single is the time you have with your friends suddenly your friends and you are equal ’cause now you both can look after boys when your out. I like that I don’t have to look great all the time I can look ugly if I want to. It might be that girls like to dress up and look pretty, but we also love to look ugly.                                                                                                  When you are single you don’t have to always think of the others person you can think a little more of yourself instead, which is great sometimes. I know it might feel lonely sometimes, but maybe you need to feel lonely it’s good for the soul I think.

Heartbroken The must scary word really!! See that is the good part of being single a boy can’t break your heart. Who wants a brokenheart? I hope nobody ’cause it’s so painfull why go through that when you don’t have to. I know that sometimes you have to ’cause you can’t find right person from the start and girls can’t say that they are afraid that a boy will break their heart ’cause we girls can break hearts too and we do it to protect us self for being brokenhearted. It’s a black circle….

– Amy

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A day of a teenager – sunday

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Omg I feel so empty and sad! I just finished watching Gossip girl how will I survive with out it? It didn’t take me long to see all 6 seasons ’cause it’s so good you feel like you are apart of a new world and eventhough the persons in the tvshow has a hard and eksteme life I still feel like I want it. I want that life!! The money, the partys, the clothes, the friendships I want it all. The tv show is made in new york and now I want to see the city more then ever ’cause the closer I come to the world the better. I wanne see all the places they go in the tv show. Okay I admit it sound wried, but haven’t you ever felt so dependent on some think. I feel like I lost apart of me. I’m gonna stop this right now ’cause it makes my look scary…:D

I saw the new batman yesterday and it was good. I was afraid that the movie would be scary but it wasen’t scary it was just dark. Normal the superhero is as good as a superhero can be, but in batman it was different. I always thought that batman was just as dark and bad as the villain, but now I don’t think it’s true ’cause in the start of the movie you learn the man who is the batman is good. He is just hurt and you feel so sorry for him, but the most important thing is that batman is the opposite of selfish batman cares for all the people in the town and he would sacrifice him self if it could save the people. Is it stupid? Not at all it gives you hope!! Imagine if we had a superhero like that it could be so amazing. You wouldn’t be so scared anymore  ’cause you new that a person always was looking after you and I know many would say that Gud is doing that and well sometimes I believe it ’cause it gives me hope!! Humans couldn’t live without hope! I know I couldn’t!

– Amy

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A day of a teenager – wednesday

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When I woke up this morning I thought I was going to see my hole family who lives in the other end of the county, but my family and my plans was changed. So I decided to do something with my little sister who is 11. For so long I wanted to see “Oz the great and powerful, so my sister, her friend and me went to the movies to see it. I was suprised ’cause the movie was very different then I expected. I don’t know if it was good or bad?? Personally I think the movie is a bit childish, but it was sweet and funny.

For some days now I have been thinking about writing a story, but I was lost what it should be about ( I love writing ’cause it gives me control. I like that I can choose how it should end e.g.) I was so inspired by Gossip girl that I wanted to write something like that with scandels and problems. So my mom got this great idea that I should write about a classe with teenagers ’cause there isen’t a place with more drama then in a class full of teenagers!!                                                                                   It’s 2 hours since I began and I just finished making a mindmap over all the 22 persons im going to write about. I would love to show you but im warning you it’s on danish.                                                                                                                                   Can’t wait to write it!!!

– Amy                                                  Please write to me inthe comments if you wanne see the mindmap!!

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