“Are you okay?” “yea I’m fine” – what do you mean by that?. Are you REALLY fine or a you actually horrible and your world is falling a part. It’s hard to know. I personally have a habit for running for my problems and I do by telling myself that I’m fine. The guy I’m seeing is also seeing someone else – you know what I’m fine, I’ll survive.
Have you heard of a panic attack? I had one last year. I remember that I couldn’t breath. I felt like my lungs where getting smaller and that I couldn’t breath probably. At the moment I didn’t know why I couldn’t breath, but thinking back at it. It makes sense that my world were falling down and a part. 4 years of pain and problems finally hit me, but instead of dealing with the problems when they came I was keeping them inside. So all the pain came down at ones.
For 4 years I said to others “I’m fine” so many times that I start believing it.
Meredith: I’m fine. Alex: You said that word so many times today, it doesn’t even sound like a word anymore
Derek: How is Meredith, anyway? Cristina: Fine. Derek: She’s always fine. That’s her problem. Cristina: We’re fine people. We do fine. We’re fine.
I wondered over this topic when I saw an episode in Grey’s anatomy, so these quotes or dialog’s is from different episodes. They describe what I want to say about this. I learned that it’s healthy to face your problems because avoiding them only makes it worse. I’m still working on it though. Sometimes it feels harder to face the problem then to avoid it, but it helps in the end.
Barbie the ideal woman. From child her body and face are planted into our memories. She is perfect! Maybe a little to perfect, but that doesn’t matter. You are little you wanna be a princess, a fairy, a woman yes even a mermaid. It’s all hunting your and my mind. I want to be perfect without mistakes and bad hair days. I still want that, but now I know perfection is a different thing. Perfection doesn’t exist. It’s not natural – it’s a dream!
The thing is that there isn’t a perfect woman or an ideal woman. You don’t have to look a certain way, because what would that look like? Barbie? I don’t think so – That isn’t beauty. Beauty is when you have your own way of being beautiful.
So if isn’t Barbie then it’s the models in the magazines who are so unreal. Perfection is a fantasy that doesn’t exist. Beauty can be in so many ways.
Imperfection is perfect to me. I know cliche, but true. For me beauty is when you are confident in yourself and be special. Beauty isen’t being hot or cute. It’s something very special and unique. If you think you are beautiful then you are. It’s not important if anyone else think you are beautiful. It’s only yourself you have to convince!
I’m so f***ing happy that I found this movie. It was funny, dramatic and it was history! I’m not talking about the boring history but this is what changed the world in the last 50s and early 60s..The beatles!!!! This movie is about John Lennon who started the band ’cause he was inspired by his mother and by Elvis Presley, but it isn’t just about his band. It’s about his life how hard he lived. For me it explained the mystery behind the beatles because for me they was always a part of history not just music history, but the real big thing. It was always fun to see how they lived and how they was back then. In some way I wished I’ve been there because they really started something big. It was also funny to see how they all find each other. it was specially funny for me to see paul McCartney find his was in because I really like his music.
I was never a big fan of the beatles, but that didn’t stop me for seeing the movie because like I wrote before it’s not just about that. The movie was one of the most amazing movies I’ve ever seen and I laughed and I cried, but the movie can maybe boring to some but to me it was more than amazing. I loved it…
Ps. The actor who plays John Lennon is really hot and cute at the same time. He looks amazing!!!
Teenagers who acts like they are grown ups – driving by VIP and money
This is the tv shows of all tv shows. My friends in school started seeing it a long time ago and they said to me ” Amalie you’ll love and omg chuck bass is so hot” I though it was very complicated because it had to many people in it and I didn’t think that chuck bass was hot. Then 5 months ago began seeing it from the start it was much better and I fell in love with Blair and Serena. The way they act is amazing they are best friends and they live in their amazing world. I don’t know what it was but I felt like I was apart of it. After some time you begin to pick side and picked Blair’s, Serena’s, Chuck’s and Nate’s ’cause even though they didn’t say it out loud they stuck together and helped each other. there wasn’t anybody who could come in their little group. They had seen the worse part of each others.
The tv show has 6 seasons and in every episode something unbelievable happens to me it seemed hard to solve but it always it ends with that the solve the problem and sometimes the persons comes in so much trouble. The thing that I found out in the tv show was every character in the tv show had a story many of them had problems with their parents. They solve all their problems with out the police and with out help from their parents.
Gossip girl isn’t only about the teenagers drama it’s also the parents drama basically it’s grown ups acting like they are teenagers just with more money they use their money for everything they can. If they need some drugs they just buy it or maybe the just steal it from their son.
I though and I still think that Gossip girl is the best tv show I have ever seen because of the love, the money, the VIP, but most important the drama. You ship the persons in the tv show with each other you wanna see them happy and you feel like you are the only one who knows who they are meant to be with. ex. in the start I only was on Serena’s side and then I also was on Blairs, but then again what was the mystery behind Chuck bass? was the bass really as bad as he seemed. Chuck was the first male in the gossip girl who made an impression on me. He was bad and twisted and a mystery. He was a girls biggest dream and you were quick totally “hot on him” and so was Blair. It just took her long time to know that Chuck also has another side. A side that only she could get out of him. Chucks biggest problem was his dad. Yes the bad ass had a very vulnerable side.
So if you like drama and mystery you should defiantly see the tv show and pick a side are you Dan Humphrey – Brooklyn side or are you with Blair and Serena on the upper east side? But must importantly what guy is you crush are you with Nate the sweet but who also can be a really bad ass or with his best friend Chuck who is sex on a stick and really bad ass or are you humble Humphrey from Brooklyn who will surprise you so much?
Like I wrote on the last post I was on vacation with my best friends. We lived with my aunt for 5 days and it was great we went shopping a lot, but we always do that. We also went to this funpark and it was funny there was many people and kids. It was good to finally get away from school even though I don’t feel like it’s summer vacation yet. It has been some tough months in school – too many exams.
I just came home and it’s awesome to be in you own house, but im only home for 2 days and then im going to Mallorca for more than 2 weeks. Have you ever been on Mallorca? I’ve been there before last year and it was amazing and hot.
Omg can you believe it today I’m going to Justin Bieber concert..I can’t wait for it!!! Right now I’m with my three girls and in 5 hours Justin Bieber is going to be on stage!!! It was hard for me to sleep yesterday ’cause I was and still are very nervous!! What if something goes wrong, what if we can’t get in!!! I remember when my friends and I began counting down to the Day and I remember that there was 268 days and now there are few hours!??!
I have a strange feeling in my stomach it feels like butterflies, but the butterflies is also a little bit nervous. I don’t know if you know what I mean, but you feel like you know this person that you never met! Is really strange? I’m finally going to see him and I can’t wait. The songs that I look forward to the must is Fall and as long as you love me, but all the songs is amazing!!!!! I can’t wait to see and feel the karma in the stadium. I know it sound strange, but it’s so hard to explain how I feel right now.
Dear honey why do you feel free today? The answer for that is easy, it’s because you are singel. Why only see the negative side when there are a positive side too. Now you don’t have to think of other persons then family, friends and yourself. Right after I began to be single I felt free and I was ready to do something crazy, but I admit sometimes I miss waking up to a sms from him where he writes how much he misses me and that he wishes me a great day. It just kind of lights up your world a little. The best thing by being single is the time you have with your friends suddenly your friends and you are equal ’cause now you both can look after boys when your out. I like that I don’t have to look great all the time I can look ugly if I want to. It might be that girls like to dress up and look pretty, but we also love to look ugly. When you are single you don’t have to always think of the others person you can think a little more of yourself instead, which is great sometimes. I know it might feel lonely sometimes, but maybe you need to feel lonely it’s good for the soul I think.
Heartbroken The must scary word really!! See that is the good part of being single a boy can’t break your heart. Who wants a brokenheart? I hope nobody ’cause it’s so painfull why go through that when you don’t have to. I know that sometimes you have to ’cause you can’t find right person from the start and girls can’t say that they are afraid that a boy will break their heart ’cause we girls can break hearts too and we do it to protect us self for being brokenhearted. It’s a black circle….
Omg best day ever!! Still sick but it it didn’t ruin my day with my girls!! The reason why the day was so good is because My friends and I went to see The host!!
The host was amazing, My friend wanted to see this movie for ages ’cause she read the book and thought it was amazing. If you love to read you should read the book ’cause if you liked the movie you would love the book even more. The book was wrote by the writer of The Twilight saga..Stephanie Meyer. I know many say her books are childish and foressable, but this wasen’t. I don’t think I have anything bad about it. The movie was not at all like Twilight saga, but you could still see that it was her who wrote the book which I thought was great. The Host suprised my so much when it was done. I couldn’t stop saying to me self that I haven’t seen that coming. If I should say one thing..My friend said that Meyer is making two books more and well right now if it was me I would stop now ’cause the movie is good just in it self!!!
Here is a link to the movie. If I was you I would really go see it it’s worth the money and time..Promise 🙂
Omg I was up so early today ’cause I had to help my best friend and her family. I think my sister and I helped them for like 5 hours and it was okay! It was fun to un pack all their kitchen stuff. My sister and I went home. I wanted so bad to see Gossip girl. I don’t know if you guys know it but the tv show is amazing. I love to see a different life then my own all the drame in thier life. I just can’t get enough of gossip girl I wish it would never end, but it does so i’m savin gthe episodes a little ’cause I don’t want it to end.
It has been an okay day. I am really happy for my friend I would love to move to not because i hate my house but because I wanted to try something new in my life! The best thing that happend today is that my easter break is longer because Denmark has some problems..It’s a long story and it isen’t very interestng!!!
A normal life of a teenager. Im opening up to all my writers to tell what happens in my life. When I started this blog I wrote about my thoughts on Monday – sunday it was an opening for what im starting on now. Every day every week I will write about my day and thoughts on the day. People would say that a normal teenage life is boring but its the opposite. A teenage life is the most interesting fase of a humans life. It’s were you begin to find out how you really are. My life isen’t special but it’s real!!