Fine.

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I’m fine, we’re all fine, everybody is fine…

“Are you okay?” “yea I’m fine” – what do you mean by that?. Are you REALLY fine or a you actually horrible and your world is falling a part. It’s hard to know. I personally have a habit for running for my problems and I do by telling myself that I’m fine. The guy I’m seeing is also seeing someone else – you know what I’m fine, I’ll survive.

Have you heard of a panic attack? I had one last year. I remember that I couldn’t breath. I felt like my lungs where getting smaller and that I couldn’t breath probably. At the moment I didn’t know why I couldn’t breath, but thinking back at it. It makes sense that my world were falling down and a part. 4 years of pain and problems finally hit me, but instead of dealing with the problems when they came I was keeping them inside. So all the pain came down at ones.

For 4 years I said to others “I’m fine” so many times that I start believing it.

Meredith: I’m fine.                                                                                                                                                                            Alex: You said that word so many times today, it doesn’t even sound like a word anymore

Derek: How is Meredith, anyway?
Cristina: Fine.
Derek: She’s always fine. That’s her problem.
Cristina: We’re fine people. We do fine. We’re fine.

I wondered over this topic when I saw an episode in Grey’s anatomy, so these quotes or dialog’s is from different episodes. They describe what I want to say about this. I learned that it’s healthy to face your problems because avoiding them only makes it worse. I’m still working on it though. Sometimes it feels harder to face the problem then to avoid it, but it helps in the end.

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I’m so…..

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Jesus I’m so stupid!! So I was running a little late this morning because I was sleeping to long.
When I was almost done with all the stuff I do in the morning I went upstairs to get me phone and on my way down I fell on the stairs because of my stupid shoes. Now I’m laying in my bed with ice on my back and feeling sorry for my self.

Just a normal day…

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Nowhere boy

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I’m so f***ing happy that I found this movie. It was funny, dramatic and it was history! I’m not talking about the boring history but this is what changed the world in the last 50s and early 60s..The beatles!!!! This movie is about John Lennon who started the band ’cause he was inspired by his mother and by Elvis Presley, but it isn’t just about his band. It’s about his life how hard he lived. For me it explained the mystery behind the beatles because for me they was always a part of history not just music history, but the real big thing. It was always fun to see how they lived and how they was back then. In some way I wished I’ve been there because they really started something big. It was also funny to see how they all find each other. it was specially funny for me to see paul McCartney find his was in because I really like his music.

I was never a big fan of the beatles, but that didn’t stop me for seeing the movie because like I wrote before it’s not just about that. The movie was one of the most amazing movies I’ve ever seen and I laughed and I cried, but the movie can maybe boring to some but to me it was more than amazing. I loved it…

Ps. The actor who plays John Lennon is really hot and cute at the same time. He looks amazing!!!

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A day of a teenager – the Weekend

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So this post isn’t just for today, but the whole weekend.This was the weekend of my life. Everything was so amazing. Let’s start from friday. Friday I had dinner with some friends and my parents. It was great, but my stomach really hurt. It felt like nervous butterflies. I think when the time was about 11 pm i left the dinner and went over to my friend. We made a little sleep over with two other girls. It’s my best friends, but Friday was nothing like Saturday. My friends and I started with warming out and when the time finally was 4 pm we went in to Copenhagen. It was crazy to see so many people in one place. We waited some outside the arena and I could feel that my stomach got more and more strange. I really felt like I was going faint ’cause I was so nervous that the tickets wouldn’t work, but they did thank god!! When we finally got in I felt much better! In there we waited for like three hours and after 2 hours I was really tired of Micheal Jackson ’cause it was playing as waiting music. The concert was a little late because of some fans in front. We waited an hour more for Justin Bieber, but it was all worth it when he entered the stage. I was so hyped!! It was so amazing! I felt like I was apart of something bigger. I finally understood what the beliebers ment when they say that we’re family!! and we are and I really felt that. It was so amazing it’s hard to describe how it was ’cause there isn’t words for it. I was just to happy to share this with my besties. It was unreal that you finally saw him after all that time following him. You really feel like you know him and that you met before and that it’s just some time since you saw him.

When Justin Bieber started singing Believe all the people in the arena had a sign that said proud. I admit that I was expecting so many people with the proud sings. It was an amazing to look out over the audience and see everyone doing the same thing. I was definitely apart of something really big and you felt like one it was so amazing. Okay hmm I’ve used amazing a lot? 😀 The music was of course also great and I stood up under the whole show. I was having so much fun and I will remember it for the rest of my life. This was my first real concert and I’m glad that it was ’cause now I will remember it for life.

After the show I felt so empty and before the concert started I had this funny feeling in my stomach that at that time I wanted to go away, but after the show I would have done anything to get it all back. I wished I could go back in time and see it all again!!! Now I’m just wondering why does people hate on when he is so amazing and just misunderstood? Is it because they are jealouse of him? I really don’t get it, what is there to hate? I just Love him really I know that you really can’t say that about a person that you never met, but I really feel like a have known him since forever!!! #believetour @Justin Bieber

Am I crazy?

– Amy

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A day of a teenager – Saturday

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Omg can you believe it today I’m going to Justin Bieber concert..I can’t wait for it!!! Right now I’m with my three girls and in 5 hours Justin Bieber is going to be on stage!!! It was hard for me to sleep yesterday ’cause I was and still are very nervous!! What if something goes wrong, what if we can’t get in!!! I remember when my friends and I began counting down to the Day and I remember that there was 268 days and now there are few hours!??!

I have a strange feeling in my stomach it feels like butterflies, but the butterflies is also a little bit nervous. I don’t know if you know what I mean, but you feel like you know this person that you never met! Is really strange? I’m finally going to see him and I can’t wait. The songs that I look forward to the must is Fall and as long as you love me, but all the songs is amazing!!!!! I can’t wait to see and feel the karma in the stadium. I know it sound strange, but it’s so hard to explain how I feel right now.

– Amy

Ps. Beliebers outside the arena in Copenhagen!!

 

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A day of a teenager – thursday

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I can’t believe how long it is since I wrote to you!! I feel so bad. The positive side is that I had time to change a little on my blog. What do you think? Please write what you think in the comments!! It would really mean a lot!!

The days are going fast! I’m not in school yet because of some problems with the schools. In the start it was awesome and it still is, but it’s beginning to be a little bit boring. I haven’t been in school for 3 weeks I think. It’s a bit hard to keep track of all the days which passed by.

In two days I’m going to Justin Bieber concert and I can’t wait to see him. I know what you may be thinking “Omg not you to” I always though he was amazing, but there was and still is so many who is saying stuff about him. I never got it, why do people hate on him. What did he do? But now I that I have to stick up for him ’cause the haters can’t decide if i like him or not. it’s strange that you feel  you know a person even though you never met the person. I feel like I know him well, but I still can’t wait to see him in person!!!! I’m going to the concert with some of the most important people in my life. They are the only persons that I want to share this experience with. We are going to the biggest arena in Denmark. I can’t wait to see all the people. There can be 30.000 people in the arena!! that’s a lot of people!!

In 16 days it’s my confirmation and omg I can’t wait I still don’t have my dress which is so annoying. I have to get it my self, so I have to take a train trip on 3 hours just to get my dress!!! Damn it…I can really feel that the day is getting closer!

I heard about what happened in boston and it’s so horrible. I can believe that USA always have to get hurt. I really pray for all the victims and for their family’s!!!! I don’t get why persons can’t do this to others. I person with a brain and a heart shouldn’t be able to do something like this?? In my head it doesn’t make any sense at all!!! I know that USA often have suffered, but I still think that the most amazing thing about USA is that when something happens that all stick together. I don’t think there is a country so loyal!! Few hours after the terror in boston happens all the celebrities start writing to boston. It’s just amazing all the things they do for their country. The president was so fast to call to boston and help. USA is loyal and most of the people who lives in USA wants to do anything to help each other. I’m a little jealous of USA as you maybe can hear..

– Amy

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I have considered in so long how to write this ’cause it’s the think that makes the world a little more bright. Well I have to remember that this isen’t just about love but about being in a relationship. Now it isen’t just you you have to think about now you are two you have to think about. What are he thinking or what are he feeling?

Being in a relationship maybe hard but it may also be the best thing happining in your life, so why fear it when you can embrase it and love it. Being in a relationship is great what I love about it is that you can talk for hours and you don’t get bored. It’s an amazing thing. I love being single but I do miss a person who thinks you are the only one and waking up in the morning with the feeling that there only is one person that you wanne see, the only person who can light up your day. When the relationship starts and maybe if you are lucky it keeps going on for a long time. The thing i’m talking about is the sparks. You don’t have to love the person when you are young like we are, but if you feel this sparkle in your stomach you shouldn’t let go of him or her. It’s amazing and it helps you get through the day. I felt the sparkles when I saw him and when I thought of them. He helped me through a hard time and it felt so good and so right. I know what your thinking how can a girl who is 14 feel that, but I did and felt crushed when it ended but later I figured out that may was for the best.

– Amy

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A day of a teenager – Thursday

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Omg best day ever!! Still sick but it it didn’t ruin my day with my girls!! The reason why the day was so good is because My friends and I went to see The host!!

The host was amazing, My friend wanted to see this movie for ages ’cause she read the book and thought it was amazing. If you love to read you should read the book ’cause if you liked the movie you would love the book even more. The book was wrote by the writer of The Twilight saga..Stephanie Meyer. I know many say her books are childish and foressable, but this wasen’t. I don’t think I have anything bad about it. The movie was not at all like Twilight saga, but you could still see that it was her who wrote the book which I thought was great. The Host suprised my so much when it was done. I couldn’t stop saying to me self that I haven’t seen that coming. If I should say one thing..My friend said that Meyer is making two books more and well right now if it was me I would stop now ’cause the movie is good just in it self!!!

Here is a link to the movie. If I was you I would really go see it it’s worth the money and time..Promise 🙂

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1517260/?ref_=sr_1

– Amy

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A day of a teenager – Saturday

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I was home late last night so im will update to times today!!

Yesterday was the longest day ever. My family and I didn’t do anything the hole day. As I wrote before I was going to see my confirmation dress, but it was 7.30 pm, so I had to use the time for something! Later that day I visited my grandmother I know it sound wried and boring, but it wasen’t it never is. My grandmother means the world to me. After that I went to see my dress. My cousine made it and it is the most beautiful thing really!! but there was some things with it so I couldn’t get it with me. It’s so annoying ‘casue now i’ll have to wait longer. I really just want it with me now!!! So yesterday wasen’t the best day ever??!

– Amy

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