Smiles and laughs

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I know it’s a long time since I last wrote and I’m not sure if people even read these anymore, but I needed to write something. It’s a long time since I’ve been so mad at the world. I’m only 16 and I don’t understand the world. I thought I did, but now I’m positive that the world we live in is disturbed.

I have three friends. Three very close friends, but they’re not just my close friends or best friends they are my family and when something happens to them. I’ll do anything to make it better, but this time I can’t do anything about it. My one friend got some very terrible news a week ago, news that would make you stop laughing for years, but this girl she smiles and laughs and I know that some would say the person is in denial, but for me it seems like she’s choosing to fight. Not only fight the bad thing, but fight the feeling of being sad. Every smile and every laugh is a fight and she keeps winning them. Every time I saw laugh or smile this week I admired her. As I wrote in my post about beauty for me it’s when a person is fighting against the darkness and the sadness that keep trying to invade their life and that’s what my friend is doing. She’s fighting against what normally would eat up a person. She smiles and laughs and it’s so amazing to watch. I’m not sure how I would react if I was in her situation, but she’s an inspiration. Seeing her smile you can see the battle behind it and that makes it the most beautiful smile you can ever see. She doesn’t see herself as strong, but that’s what it takes and normally when you fight somewhere in the future there will be victory. So even though I’m not sure I even believe in God I believe in something bigger someone who listens and today and tomorrow everyday until victory I’ll pray for this amazing strong girl who should get a victory medal for winning everyday over the sadness in her fighting against her. I hope some of you will pray for this girl you never met. Pray for her to keep winning, because I know she can. I’ll pray for my family. If she’s strong – I’m strong.

Love you.

“For being beautiful, amazing and one hell of a fighter”

– Amy

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sadness

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I hate crying and like everybody else I HATE being sad. But why? I mean do we really have to cry and be sad. I just can’t see why we have to feel bad I mean everybody deserve happiness. I know it sound strange, but I never cried – I didn’t cry over him, her and the other her and oh yea the third her and no I’m not into girls. It’s some  ex best friends and well it didn’t end very well…I never cried and isn’t that strange I mean. Shouldn’t I cry isn’t that normal to cry when something bad happens to you???? I feel like crying is overrated. I don’t think I can say it’s overrated because I always cries in movies and tv shows and I don’t know why. It’s not normal not to cry when you lose someone and cry when something happens in movies and tv shows. I think I’m ignoring that feeling. I never cry anymore….

Enough about crying it’s depressing. Back to sadness. What it is? I know that it comes when something happens or when you lose someone. I don’t think that the only reason I mean sadness comes with happiness. A person can’t be happy all the time. I don’t think it would be good if you just was happy. I think you grow of sadness. You involve because of it. You learn to deal with it and live with it.

I think that sadness and happiness follow each others. When you sad it follows with happiness!

 

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Long time no see

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So I just caught my self talking to my self. That was when I realised that I really should write to you. I feel bad ’cause I haven’t written for so many weeks that I can’t even count them. My life is so stressed and I’m actually considering dyeing because of all the homework. It’s harder being in 9th grade then I imagined. I just like writing to you guys. it’s my way to put all my thought out of my head which is so freaking awesome. And yes I did just said freaking instead of cursing, I’m trying not to curse anymore. I’m 15 now and I feel like I should grow up!!

Well I’m back sweet honey’s!!!!

XO Amy 🙂

Nowhere boy

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I’m so f***ing happy that I found this movie. It was funny, dramatic and it was history! I’m not talking about the boring history but this is what changed the world in the last 50s and early 60s..The beatles!!!! This movie is about John Lennon who started the band ’cause he was inspired by his mother and by Elvis Presley, but it isn’t just about his band. It’s about his life how hard he lived. For me it explained the mystery behind the beatles because for me they was always a part of history not just music history, but the real big thing. It was always fun to see how they lived and how they was back then. In some way I wished I’ve been there because they really started something big. It was also funny to see how they all find each other. it was specially funny for me to see paul McCartney find his was in because I really like his music.

I was never a big fan of the beatles, but that didn’t stop me for seeing the movie because like I wrote before it’s not just about that. The movie was one of the most amazing movies I’ve ever seen and I laughed and I cried, but the movie can maybe boring to some but to me it was more than amazing. I loved it…

Ps. The actor who plays John Lennon is really hot and cute at the same time. He looks amazing!!!

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The amazing MEDIA

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I write  about teenagers out of experience even though i’m young. I write about what’s on my mind. That’s very formal and you have know idea who I am or what I do. That’s why you can’t follow me on Instagram and I can follow you that way we can get to know each others and it’s the same with snapchat which also only is with pictures that way we can communicate even though I maybe on the other side of the world. The media connects us.

My instagram: amypigen

My snapchat: whosays

And my twitter again: amypigen

Will I see you this summer?

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Nervousness

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A strange feeling in your stomach. You may think you are sick, but sometimes it can feel like it.There can be many reasons for being nervous. It’s often something you get when you are about to try something new and you want to quit what your about to do. Just so you don’t have to be nervous anymore, but don’t let nervousness control you. You have to be in your nervousness so it wont control you. To be in your nervousness you have to let go. Don’t try to get out of the feeling. stay in it.

I’m often nervous and it’s hard to deal with it, but for me it always works when I take 10 deep breaths. It helps me relax and be in the feeling. Sometimes don’t fix it but just let it flow. Omg are you hearing me I sound like a woodo lady????

What can make you nervous?

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Some people is just…..

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5 people I can’t stand

1. Taylor swift

It’s not that I don’t like her music I do, but her personality right now is horrible. I don’t know what it is exactly but I just can’t stand her. She uses guys when she makes music. In the start I thought it was funny, but now I think it’s annoying. She’s winning to many awards every year and she takes is for granted.

2. lil twist

I don’t know anything about him, but he’s just no good. He’s been doing drugs. He drove Justin Bieber on the wrong track. Overtime the police caught him, but some how he comes out on prison. I don’t know if he buys him out of it. He just don’t have that much money.

3. Kristen Stewart

I always looked up to her, but now I can’t stand her. I don’t know what she is doing with her life right now. She is ruin everything with Robert. It’s like she don’t think before she do something. She has a talent as actor I just don’t get why she don’t do something with her talent now that twilight is over.

4. Teenage girls

I know I can’t hate my self, but sometimes i do. Teenage girls are so mean really. They stare at you like your some kind of phantom.We bitch about each other all time. We say things behind each others back. We always think about ourselves and our clothes friends when it really counts.

5. Clowns

Omg they are so f**king scary with their painted face and their creepy smile. It really just freaks me out. Clowns are the reason that I never is in circus. They think they are funny but they are really just scary. Ohm okay I admit i may have seen to many CSI episodes but they are always the killer in the horror movie or tv show.

Someone you can’t stand. Let me hear your thought?!

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5 things I…

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5 Things I love about the world

1. Human

Omg human are so smart. If they need something they just invent what they need. It’s genius. Human is curious and I like that.They research a lot about our history. Humans wanna know what happened and was before us. I my self like history ’cause for my it’s exiting to research things e.g The greek mythology.

2. Be your self.

I know it’s not like this all over the world, but I love that people can mean what they will and be who they will. Your not locked in a case on how you should be. There is only one of you.

3. Community

I love that when something happens all country’s come to help like when Haiti was hit be a tidal wave. Many country’s brought food and medication to the people on the island. It’s like we’re in it together. I like the feeling that Denmark and my self  is not all on our own. We can always get help.

4. Teenagers

I like our revolution on how to be different. I love that teenagers…Us have our own category. People get’s surprise every day over what we can’t do to the world. We have something to say. What I love about us is that we are exploring us self. We are finding out who we wanna be and Grown ups should now that they have to let us grow by our self.

5. Music

The thing that chances all the time. Music brings us together it gathers many different people. Music does so we all have something in common. For me it makes my day better I feel like I am apart of something. When I’m sad I listen to music that I can relay me feelings to. It makes me feel like I’m not alone with this feeling. When I’m happy I hear happy music so show others my joy. It can bring you to someone special. I couldn’t live with out the music.

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What to do next?

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I’m so lost right now, what should i do with this blog. I love writing and I love writing to all of you. I just don’t know what to write about.

I’ve been thinking that I would start to write a story so every week I would publish some chapters of the story, but I just don’t know if you guys would like it. Please help amazing followers!! What do you think about my idea? Do you want me to write about? What is missing on blog? Please Help!!