Smiles and laughs

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I know it’s a long time since I last wrote and I’m not sure if people even read these anymore, but I needed to write something. It’s a long time since I’ve been so mad at the world. I’m only 16 and I don’t understand the world. I thought I did, but now I’m positive that the world we live in is disturbed.

I have three friends. Three very close friends, but they’re not just my close friends or best friends they are my family and when something happens to them. I’ll do anything to make it better, but this time I can’t do anything about it. My one friend got some very terrible news a week ago, news that would make you stop laughing for years, but this girl she smiles and laughs and I know that some would say the person is in denial, but for me it seems like she’s choosing to fight. Not only fight the bad thing, but fight the feeling of being sad. Every smile and every laugh is a fight and she keeps winning them. Every time I saw laugh or smile this week I admired her. As I wrote in my post about beauty for me it’s when a person is fighting against the darkness and the sadness that keep trying to invade their life and that’s what my friend is doing. She’s fighting against what normally would eat up a person. She smiles and laughs and it’s so amazing to watch. I’m not sure how I would react if I was in her situation, but she’s an inspiration. Seeing her smile you can see the battle behind it and that makes it the most beautiful smile you can ever see. She doesn’t see herself as strong, but that’s what it takes and normally when you fight somewhere in the future there will be victory. So even though I’m not sure I even believe in God I believe in something bigger someone who listens and today and tomorrow everyday until victory I’ll pray for this amazing strong girl who should get a victory medal for winning everyday over the sadness in her fighting against her. I hope some of you will pray for this girl you never met. Pray for her to keep winning, because I know she can. I’ll pray for my family. If she’s strong – I’m strong.

Love you.

“For being beautiful, amazing and one hell of a fighter”

– Amy

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Nowhere boy

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I’m so f***ing happy that I found this movie. It was funny, dramatic and it was history! I’m not talking about the boring history but this is what changed the world in the last 50s and early 60s..The beatles!!!! This movie is about John Lennon who started the band ’cause he was inspired by his mother and by Elvis Presley, but it isn’t just about his band. It’s about his life how hard he lived. For me it explained the mystery behind the beatles because for me they was always a part of history not just music history, but the real big thing. It was always fun to see how they lived and how they was back then. In some way I wished I’ve been there because they really started something big. It was also funny to see how they all find each other. it was specially funny for me to see paul McCartney find his was in because I really like his music.

I was never a big fan of the beatles, but that didn’t stop me for seeing the movie because like I wrote before it’s not just about that. The movie was one of the most amazing movies I’ve ever seen and I laughed and I cried, but the movie can maybe boring to some but to me it was more than amazing. I loved it…

Ps. The actor who plays John Lennon is really hot and cute at the same time. He looks amazing!!!

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A day of a teenager – the Weekend

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So this post isn’t just for today, but the whole weekend.This was the weekend of my life. Everything was so amazing. Let’s start from friday. Friday I had dinner with some friends and my parents. It was great, but my stomach really hurt. It felt like nervous butterflies. I think when the time was about 11 pm i left the dinner and went over to my friend. We made a little sleep over with two other girls. It’s my best friends, but Friday was nothing like Saturday. My friends and I started with warming out and when the time finally was 4 pm we went in to Copenhagen. It was crazy to see so many people in one place. We waited some outside the arena and I could feel that my stomach got more and more strange. I really felt like I was going faint ’cause I was so nervous that the tickets wouldn’t work, but they did thank god!! When we finally got in I felt much better! In there we waited for like three hours and after 2 hours I was really tired of Micheal Jackson ’cause it was playing as waiting music. The concert was a little late because of some fans in front. We waited an hour more for Justin Bieber, but it was all worth it when he entered the stage. I was so hyped!! It was so amazing! I felt like I was apart of something bigger. I finally understood what the beliebers ment when they say that we’re family!! and we are and I really felt that. It was so amazing it’s hard to describe how it was ’cause there isn’t words for it. I was just to happy to share this with my besties. It was unreal that you finally saw him after all that time following him. You really feel like you know him and that you met before and that it’s just some time since you saw him.

When Justin Bieber started singing Believe all the people in the arena had a sign that said proud. I admit that I was expecting so many people with the proud sings. It was an amazing to look out over the audience and see everyone doing the same thing. I was definitely apart of something really big and you felt like one it was so amazing. Okay hmm I’ve used amazing a lot? 😀 The music was of course also great and I stood up under the whole show. I was having so much fun and I will remember it for the rest of my life. This was my first real concert and I’m glad that it was ’cause now I will remember it for life.

After the show I felt so empty and before the concert started I had this funny feeling in my stomach that at that time I wanted to go away, but after the show I would have done anything to get it all back. I wished I could go back in time and see it all again!!! Now I’m just wondering why does people hate on when he is so amazing and just misunderstood? Is it because they are jealouse of him? I really don’t get it, what is there to hate? I just Love him really I know that you really can’t say that about a person that you never met, but I really feel like a have known him since forever!!! #believetour @Justin Bieber

Am I crazy?

– Amy

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*dying* :0

A day of a teenager – thursday

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I can’t believe how long it is since I wrote to you!! I feel so bad. The positive side is that I had time to change a little on my blog. What do you think? Please write what you think in the comments!! It would really mean a lot!!

The days are going fast! I’m not in school yet because of some problems with the schools. In the start it was awesome and it still is, but it’s beginning to be a little bit boring. I haven’t been in school for 3 weeks I think. It’s a bit hard to keep track of all the days which passed by.

In two days I’m going to Justin Bieber concert and I can’t wait to see him. I know what you may be thinking “Omg not you to” I always though he was amazing, but there was and still is so many who is saying stuff about him. I never got it, why do people hate on him. What did he do? But now I that I have to stick up for him ’cause the haters can’t decide if i like him or not. it’s strange that you feel  you know a person even though you never met the person. I feel like I know him well, but I still can’t wait to see him in person!!!! I’m going to the concert with some of the most important people in my life. They are the only persons that I want to share this experience with. We are going to the biggest arena in Denmark. I can’t wait to see all the people. There can be 30.000 people in the arena!! that’s a lot of people!!

In 16 days it’s my confirmation and omg I can’t wait I still don’t have my dress which is so annoying. I have to get it my self, so I have to take a train trip on 3 hours just to get my dress!!! Damn it…I can really feel that the day is getting closer!

I heard about what happened in boston and it’s so horrible. I can believe that USA always have to get hurt. I really pray for all the victims and for their family’s!!!! I don’t get why persons can’t do this to others. I person with a brain and a heart shouldn’t be able to do something like this?? In my head it doesn’t make any sense at all!!! I know that USA often have suffered, but I still think that the most amazing thing about USA is that when something happens that all stick together. I don’t think there is a country so loyal!! Few hours after the terror in boston happens all the celebrities start writing to boston. It’s just amazing all the things they do for their country. The president was so fast to call to boston and help. USA is loyal and most of the people who lives in USA wants to do anything to help each other. I’m a little jealous of USA as you maybe can hear..

– Amy

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Single

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Dear honey why do you feel free today? The answer for that is easy, it’s because you are singel. Why only see the negative side when there are a positive side too. Now you don’t have to think of other persons then family, friends and yourself. Right after I began to be single I felt free and I was ready to do something crazy, but I admit sometimes I miss waking up to a sms from him where he writes how much he misses me and that he wishes me a great day. It just kind of lights up your world a little. The best thing by being single is the time you have with your friends suddenly your friends and you are equal ’cause now you both can look after boys when your out. I like that I don’t have to look great all the time I can look ugly if I want to. It might be that girls like to dress up and look pretty, but we also love to look ugly.                                                                                                  When you are single you don’t have to always think of the others person you can think a little more of yourself instead, which is great sometimes. I know it might feel lonely sometimes, but maybe you need to feel lonely it’s good for the soul I think.

Heartbroken The must scary word really!! See that is the good part of being single a boy can’t break your heart. Who wants a brokenheart? I hope nobody ’cause it’s so painfull why go through that when you don’t have to. I know that sometimes you have to ’cause you can’t find right person from the start and girls can’t say that they are afraid that a boy will break their heart ’cause we girls can break hearts too and we do it to protect us self for being brokenhearted. It’s a black circle….

– Amy

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A day of a teenager – sunday

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Omg I feel so empty and sad! I just finished watching Gossip girl how will I survive with out it? It didn’t take me long to see all 6 seasons ’cause it’s so good you feel like you are apart of a new world and eventhough the persons in the tvshow has a hard and eksteme life I still feel like I want it. I want that life!! The money, the partys, the clothes, the friendships I want it all. The tv show is made in new york and now I want to see the city more then ever ’cause the closer I come to the world the better. I wanne see all the places they go in the tv show. Okay I admit it sound wried, but haven’t you ever felt so dependent on some think. I feel like I lost apart of me. I’m gonna stop this right now ’cause it makes my look scary…:D

I saw the new batman yesterday and it was good. I was afraid that the movie would be scary but it wasen’t scary it was just dark. Normal the superhero is as good as a superhero can be, but in batman it was different. I always thought that batman was just as dark and bad as the villain, but now I don’t think it’s true ’cause in the start of the movie you learn the man who is the batman is good. He is just hurt and you feel so sorry for him, but the most important thing is that batman is the opposite of selfish batman cares for all the people in the town and he would sacrifice him self if it could save the people. Is it stupid? Not at all it gives you hope!! Imagine if we had a superhero like that it could be so amazing. You wouldn’t be so scared anymore  ’cause you new that a person always was looking after you and I know many would say that Gud is doing that and well sometimes I believe it ’cause it gives me hope!! Humans couldn’t live without hope! I know I couldn’t!

– Amy

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A day of a teenager – Saturday

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I was home late last night so im will update to times today!!

Yesterday was the longest day ever. My family and I didn’t do anything the hole day. As I wrote before I was going to see my confirmation dress, but it was 7.30 pm, so I had to use the time for something! Later that day I visited my grandmother I know it sound wried and boring, but it wasen’t it never is. My grandmother means the world to me. After that I went to see my dress. My cousine made it and it is the most beautiful thing really!! but there was some things with it so I couldn’t get it with me. It’s so annoying ‘casue now i’ll have to wait longer. I really just want it with me now!!! So yesterday wasen’t the best day ever??!

– Amy

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A day of a teenager – friday

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It has been a funny and a sweet day ’cause my moms sister and her children came to visit us today. My family and I live in the other part of the country so we don’t see them much..So everytime we see the children they’ve grown a lot sometimes I feel they grow to fast. My family is the most important thing ’cause no matter what they always got my back!!

I felt so stupid today because we went for a walk all of us and I didn’t have any warm clotes with me. Like a real teenager I looked like it was summer. The walk ended in snow. I mean really snow in the easter???? I hate Denmark!!!! Why does it always have to be so cold? I still can’t wait for tomorrow, im going to see my dress!!!!

It’s cozy to be in  the summerhouse, but it can be boring!! I know it sounds wried, but it’s so hard for me to fall asleep at night cause im scared. What about you when do you feel scared? I feel it when it’s dark at night and im living in the middel of no where. I don’t know what exactly I am afraid of, but okay I admit it! You have to work with your scariness you have to admit you are afraid. Sometimes you feel so afriad that you have to talk to somebody instead of just hidding it away ’cause someday when your afraid all the other times you’ve been afraid comes back, so all the scariness comes at the same time!! It so much harder to work with.

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Confidence

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We want it and well some of us have it.. you can have it in your self but also in others. What makes you confidence? It can be trust and believing, to have it in others you have to have it in your self. It’s so great to have confidence ’cause you feel like you can do anything!!

The amazing feeling when you can role the world okay i mean who doesn’t want people to know who you are, but with out confidence in your self and in others you cant get all that ’cause you need to believe!!!

Personally i don’t feel confidence at lease not right now…what about you do you fell confidence?

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