I know it’s a long time since I last wrote and I’m not sure if people even read these anymore, but I needed to write something. It’s a long time since I’ve been so mad at the world. I’m only 16 and I don’t understand the world. I thought I did, but now I’m positive that the world we live in is disturbed.
I have three friends. Three very close friends, but they’re not just my close friends or best friends they are my family and when something happens to them. I’ll do anything to make it better, but this time I can’t do anything about it. My one friend got some very terrible news a week ago, news that would make you stop laughing for years, but this girl she smiles and laughs and I know that some would say the person is in denial, but for me it seems like she’s choosing to fight. Not only fight the bad thing, but fight the feeling of being sad. Every smile and every laugh is a fight and she keeps winning them. Every time I saw laugh or smile this week I admired her. As I wrote in my post about beauty for me it’s when a person is fighting against the darkness and the sadness that keep trying to invade their life and that’s what my friend is doing. She’s fighting against what normally would eat up a person. She smiles and laughs and it’s so amazing to watch. I’m not sure how I would react if I was in her situation, but she’s an inspiration. Seeing her smile you can see the battle behind it and that makes it the most beautiful smile you can ever see. She doesn’t see herself as strong, but that’s what it takes and normally when you fight somewhere in the future there will be victory. So even though I’m not sure I even believe in God I believe in something bigger someone who listens and today and tomorrow everyday until victory I’ll pray for this amazing strong girl who should get a victory medal for winning everyday over the sadness in her fighting against her. I hope some of you will pray for this girl you never met. Pray for her to keep winning, because I know she can. I’ll pray for my family. If she’s strong – I’m strong.
“For being beautiful, amazing and one hell of a fighter”
Like I wrote on the last post I was on vacation with my best friends. We lived with my aunt for 5 days and it was great we went shopping a lot, but we always do that. We also went to this funpark and it was funny there was many people and kids. It was good to finally get away from school even though I don’t feel like it’s summer vacation yet. It has been some tough months in school – too many exams.
I just came home and it’s awesome to be in you own house, but im only home for 2 days and then im going to Mallorca for more than 2 weeks. Have you ever been on Mallorca? I’ve been there before last year and it was amazing and hot.
Oh damn it’s exam time. It makes you nervous in your stomach. It makes you question if your good enough. It’s hard for you to sleep at night ’cause you are going trough the list of what you have to do before the exams.
There is something I don’t get. Often people say that when your teenager it’s hard for you to concentrate ’cause of all the hormones. Then why the f**k is the hardest time in school when your teenager. I doesn’t make any sense. The time we shall be most focused is the time when it’s hardest to be. It’s just too much for us. All the fun just slips away slowly and for some reason it just gets harder the older you get in the teenage age.
I know that even though I say to me self relax it’s going to be fin. It’s not like you’ll be dying if you get a little grade, but no matter how many times you say it to your self it just keeps hunting you until it’s over and maybe also after it’s over. You always compare to what the other in the class got and you say to your self that you don’t care and maybe you really don’t care what others think of you. But it isn’t just what they think but also what you think of your self and what job you did.
So this post isn’t just for today, but the whole weekend.This was the weekend of my life. Everything was so amazing. Let’s start from friday. Friday I had dinner with some friends and my parents. It was great, but my stomach really hurt. It felt like nervous butterflies. I think when the time was about 11 pm i left the dinner and went over to my friend. We made a little sleep over with two other girls. It’s my best friends, but Friday was nothing like Saturday. My friends and I started with warming out and when the time finally was 4 pm we went in to Copenhagen. It was crazy to see so many people in one place. We waited some outside the arena and I could feel that my stomach got more and more strange. I really felt like I was going faint ’cause I was so nervous that the tickets wouldn’t work, but they did thank god!! When we finally got in I felt much better! In there we waited for like three hours and after 2 hours I was really tired of Micheal Jackson ’cause it was playing as waiting music. The concert was a little late because of some fans in front. We waited an hour more for Justin Bieber, but it was all worth it when he entered the stage. I was so hyped!! It was so amazing! I felt like I was apart of something bigger. I finally understood what the beliebers ment when they say that we’re family!! and we are and I really felt that. It was so amazing it’s hard to describe how it was ’cause there isn’t words for it. I was just to happy to share this with my besties. It was unreal that you finally saw him after all that time following him. You really feel like you know him and that you met before and that it’s just some time since you saw him.
When Justin Bieber started singing Believe all the people in the arena had a sign that said proud. I admit that I was expecting so many people with the proud sings. It was an amazing to look out over the audience and see everyone doing the same thing. I was definitely apart of something really big and you felt like one it was so amazing. Okay hmm I’ve used amazing a lot? 😀 The music was of course also great and I stood up under the whole show. I was having so much fun and I will remember it for the rest of my life. This was my first real concert and I’m glad that it was ’cause now I will remember it for life.
After the show I felt so empty and before the concert started I had this funny feeling in my stomach that at that time I wanted to go away, but after the show I would have done anything to get it all back. I wished I could go back in time and see it all again!!! Now I’m just wondering why does people hate on when he is so amazing and just misunderstood? Is it because they are jealouse of him? I really don’t get it, what is there to hate? I just Love him really I know that you really can’t say that about a person that you never met, but I really feel like a have known him since forever!!! #believetour @Justin Bieber
Omg can you believe it today I’m going to Justin Bieber concert..I can’t wait for it!!! Right now I’m with my three girls and in 5 hours Justin Bieber is going to be on stage!!! It was hard for me to sleep yesterday ’cause I was and still are very nervous!! What if something goes wrong, what if we can’t get in!!! I remember when my friends and I began counting down to the Day and I remember that there was 268 days and now there are few hours!??!
I have a strange feeling in my stomach it feels like butterflies, but the butterflies is also a little bit nervous. I don’t know if you know what I mean, but you feel like you know this person that you never met! Is really strange? I’m finally going to see him and I can’t wait. The songs that I look forward to the must is Fall and as long as you love me, but all the songs is amazing!!!!! I can’t wait to see and feel the karma in the stadium. I know it sound strange, but it’s so hard to explain how I feel right now.
I can’t believe how long it is since I wrote to you!! I feel so bad. The positive side is that I had time to change a little on my blog. What do you think? Please write what you think in the comments!! It would really mean a lot!!
The days are going fast! I’m not in school yet because of some problems with the schools. In the start it was awesome and it still is, but it’s beginning to be a little bit boring. I haven’t been in school for 3 weeks I think. It’s a bit hard to keep track of all the days which passed by.
In two days I’m going to Justin Bieber concert and I can’t wait to see him. I know what you may be thinking “Omg not you to” I always though he was amazing, but there was and still is so many who is saying stuff about him. I never got it, why do people hate on him. What did he do? But now I that I have to stick up for him ’cause the haters can’t decide if i like him or not. it’s strange that you feel you know a person even though you never met the person. I feel like I know him well, but I still can’t wait to see him in person!!!! I’m going to the concert with some of the most important people in my life. They are the only persons that I want to share this experience with. We are going to the biggest arena in Denmark. I can’t wait to see all the people. There can be 30.000 people in the arena!! that’s a lot of people!!
In 16 days it’s my confirmation and omg I can’t wait I still don’t have my dress which is so annoying. I have to get it my self, so I have to take a train trip on 3 hours just to get my dress!!! Damn it…I can really feel that the day is getting closer!
I heard about what happened in boston and it’s so horrible. I can believe that USA always have to get hurt. I really pray for all the victims and for their family’s!!!! I don’t get why persons can’t do this to others. I person with a brain and a heart shouldn’t be able to do something like this?? In my head it doesn’t make any sense at all!!! I know that USA often have suffered, but I still think that the most amazing thing about USA is that when something happens that all stick together. I don’t think there is a country so loyal!! Few hours after the terror in boston happens all the celebrities start writing to boston. It’s just amazing all the things they do for their country. The president was so fast to call to boston and help. USA is loyal and most of the people who lives in USA wants to do anything to help each other. I’m a little jealous of USA as you maybe can hear..
Omg I feel so empty and sad! I just finished watching Gossip girl how will I survive with out it? It didn’t take me long to see all 6 seasons ’cause it’s so good you feel like you are apart of a new world and eventhough the persons in the tvshow has a hard and eksteme life I still feel like I want it. I want that life!! The money, the partys, the clothes, the friendships I want it all. The tv show is made in new york and now I want to see the city more then ever ’cause the closer I come to the world the better. I wanne see all the places they go in the tv show. Okay I admit it sound wried, but haven’t you ever felt so dependent on some think. I feel like I lost apart of me. I’m gonna stop this right now ’cause it makes my look scary…:D
I saw the new batman yesterday and it was good. I was afraid that the movie would be scary but it wasen’t scary it was just dark. Normal the superhero is as good as a superhero can be, but in batman it was different. I always thought that batman was just as dark and bad as the villain, but now I don’t think it’s true ’cause in the start of the movie you learn the man who is the batman is good. He is just hurt and you feel so sorry for him, but the most important thing is that batman is the opposite of selfish batman cares for all the people in the town and he would sacrifice him self if it could save the people. Is it stupid? Not at all it gives you hope!! Imagine if we had a superhero like that it could be so amazing. You wouldn’t be so scared anymore ’cause you new that a person always was looking after you and I know many would say that Gud is doing that and well sometimes I believe it ’cause it gives me hope!! Humans couldn’t live without hope! I know I couldn’t!
Omg best day ever!! Still sick but it it didn’t ruin my day with my girls!! The reason why the day was so good is because My friends and I went to see The host!!
The host was amazing, My friend wanted to see this movie for ages ’cause she read the book and thought it was amazing. If you love to read you should read the book ’cause if you liked the movie you would love the book even more. The book was wrote by the writer of The Twilight saga..Stephanie Meyer. I know many say her books are childish and foressable, but this wasen’t. I don’t think I have anything bad about it. The movie was not at all like Twilight saga, but you could still see that it was her who wrote the book which I thought was great. The Host suprised my so much when it was done. I couldn’t stop saying to me self that I haven’t seen that coming. If I should say one thing..My friend said that Meyer is making two books more and well right now if it was me I would stop now ’cause the movie is good just in it self!!!
Here is a link to the movie. If I was you I would really go see it it’s worth the money and time..Promise 🙂
I was home late last night so im will update to times today!!
Yesterday was the longest day ever. My family and I didn’t do anything the hole day. As I wrote before I was going to see my confirmation dress, but it was 7.30 pm, so I had to use the time for something! Later that day I visited my grandmother I know it sound wried and boring, but it wasen’t it never is. My grandmother means the world to me. After that I went to see my dress. My cousine made it and it is the most beautiful thing really!! but there was some things with it so I couldn’t get it with me. It’s so annoying ‘casue now i’ll have to wait longer. I really just want it with me now!!! So yesterday wasen’t the best day ever??!
A normal life of a teenager. Im opening up to all my writers to tell what happens in my life. When I started this blog I wrote about my thoughts on Monday – sunday it was an opening for what im starting on now. Every day every week I will write about my day and thoughts on the day. People would say that a normal teenage life is boring but its the opposite. A teenage life is the most interesting fase of a humans life. It’s were you begin to find out how you really are. My life isen’t special but it’s real!!